thank you h d
ill get it out tomorrow hopefully.
recovery. lets not go there. arm is causing major problems, probably going bck in surgery. been in the hospital more than once on it already and it's getting old, im telling you it's getting old. the pain right now, ... if they can't fix this shit, just cut the goddamned thing off, i can't use it anyways and am not going to put up with this nonstop pain. i think something re broke, and every day i use it, just aggrivates it and re - undoes whatever and it's just constantly at a state of, ouch i just broke. i goto see the doctor thursday, lets see what he says. you can see on a flouroscope the bone fkn moves, its hard to see on an x ray because those they put the hand in an ideal position, and its still, and the metal in there covers it up but when you look at the correct angle, so you can see the bone and flex where the pain explodes and SEE that bastard move. but getting the doctor to actually listen to you on that and take you seriously. (then having to explain, ok why do you have a home made x ray / flouroscope in your house) being in constant pain just drains you both physically and your soul. some days i don't even want to get out of bed, other days, im so wore out from a really bad night, i can't.
hopefully we get a game plan here and can get something going this thursday once and for all, go in one last time (no more blood clots this time ok guys???) and get it done and over with.
aaron
